It is half a year since I wrote anything on this blog. Is anyone still out there??! Apologies if anyone (!) has been looking out for my musings.
I wasn't in a great place at the beginning of the year and then it all just felt too overwhelming. I didn't seem to be able to write concisely or in a reasonable fashion. Brexit, Trump, austerity, the climate, it all just felt too much. So I concentrated more on trying to stay happy in my small place in the world.
However, I am just reading a book which has spurred me into blogging action finally. It is called Lowborn and is by a brilliant writer called Kerry Hudson. You may have seen it around - in the UK for sure - as it is hotly tipped for all sorts of non-fiction prizes.
Kerry Hudson was brought up be a mainly single mother who dragged her to towns in all parts of the UK. She says she attended 9 primary schools, for example She experienced a grinding, seemingly never-ending kind of poverty which has, I believe, rarely been written about in this country - for the reasons that she details from the beginning of the book. Namely being in a class who are considered worthless and feckless. People rarely drag themselves out and even more rarely discuss their pasts if they do.
Reading her story is an incredibly sobering experience. I would like to think of myself as a caring person. Someone who tries to be aware of differences between people. To be sensitive. To give what I can when I can. But reading this book makes you all too aware how almost impossible it is to offer much respite to those living such lives unless you could house them, give them bank accounts, give them jobs. Simply the act of sending your own child to school well-fed and in a clean uniform gives daily pain to those who are hungry and whose uniforms are too small, too dirty.
And then how much difference would that make in the end because so much is ingrained in terms of lack of parenting, alcohol and substance abuse, casual violence and abuse. The cycle goes on and is difficult to break. Yet Kerry Hudson came through and others have too. There are ways to turn this section of society around and as I have argued many times on this blog, the UK is not a poor country - despite what many in government would have us believe. There is money, a great deal of money. But there is no desire to make any real change. Thousands and thousands of people are living below the poverty line. Daily forced to choose between food or heat, bills or school shoes, etc etc ad infinitum. Food banks report that they can barely cope with the onset of school holidays - the loss of free school meals for six weeks simply breaks the delicate finances of many families.
This is the twenty first century, people. Weren't we all supposed to be equal and disease-free and living in high tech, violence-free communities by now? Some the most terrifying parts of Kerry's book are when she revisits the towns that she lived in during her childhood. Most have not changed, many are worse off than thirty years ago. No wonder so many of such places voted for the grotesque clowns who promised that the EU was the root of all their troubles and that leaving the EU would bring endless cash injections. 'Beware men bearing gifts'...
Read Lowborn, I urge you. It will probably make you weep. But I hope it spurs you to action too. Protest. Donate. But most of all, start trying to think differently about why someone might be where they, looking like they do or behaving in a certain way.
